Wednesday, March 16, 2011

408

Most of the time, I forget to keep up with you
and you freeze into the position you're always in
when you've been standing too long and have
no walls to lean on

Until I catch up and let you move
remembering I was looking for you.
You stretch out all your limbs
and have to follow me because
I have somewhere to go.

407

I even told you where I went the day
when I stormed out on you.
You, wearing your slippers and the baby in your arms

Now when we drive by the cider mill
and see the rock where I said I sat,
you wonder what I look like alone,
and even ask me if I wonder it too.

406

You can't understand why I can't read
the scratches on the coffee table
you put there with a fork.

I just don't want to admit I get it-
you're wrong every time,
but your eyebrows point stiffly down
in assuredness that makes you look
like a little girl about to cry.

Still, if I could make you know
that I don't remember when we met, I would,
so I wouldn't have to be the only one who leaves.

405

Anyone's hands would look new to you.
You've never traced the creases of their skin,
wondered if you found all of them,
would it look just like a hand again

You've only buried your own in dirt
and listened to them anxiously explain
why you can't live without them

404

How could I do anything
but watch the first plane I've ever seen
take off
even though now I live
just a mile from the airport
and there will be a thousand more

403

You couldn't fit into even the least clear pattern
when you learn the science of twigs on branches.
The pictures living on the wall
couldn't tell me what to say to you
this time when you came home

402

The box I'm going to bring to you is empty,
nothing you'll find to talk about like you'd hoped.
I won't wear an interesting shirt,
and my hair will be the same old way.

I will be calmer than such silence allows.
Tell me that I broke the rules.
Why don't you just ask that I go?
You'll want to cross your arms but they're already crossed.
I'll sit down and let you stand so that
you don't think I really wanted a reason.